There are a million decisions made
If I could just undo a few
And change all that has come to be
Rather than fester on the ashes of my dreams
Here with the ghost of you
And with the miscreant that is me

It's the bones that are brittle
The endless count of days
Where I can't escape the memory
Wherever I go, there I am
Horrid, wretched, betrayed
A dead man lost at sea

I should have moved
But the words were never clearly said
I was left standing in the rain
Yeah, dramatic much
It's all got to be in my head
Even the unending pain

I'd give these bank accounts full of cash
Just for a day like I once had
I'd burn this empire to the ground
I'd give my health, my fortune
I'm afraid I've gone quite mad
I just want to have you around

I wake up, and light a cigarette
It's still dark but I'm awake with my regret
I can't though I try, I can't forget
I replay it all every day
As if I could change it in some way
It's too late though, you gone away

I got nowhere to go
Nowhere I can be
Just the same mundane routine
I hate you because I love you
I dream and wish I didn't
This is all it could ever be