Watching the months go by

And nothing is getting clearer

My world has changed

And yet the pain is so familiar

I’m still here

Bleeding like a fool in the corner

Summer is coming

And yet I don’t feel it getting warmer

We can wish all we want

Those stars long stopped to fall

I remember sitting at the phone

But you never did call

I’m watching the scars

Somehow they still seem to grow

I tried to kill all the pain

But it’s kind of pointless doing it alone

I never open the windows anymore

I just walk inside and close the door

I pray, and I hope that God hears me

But I don’t even know what I’m praying for

Maybe I’m asking for hope

But my prayers seem hollow and dead

Words just spilling out from my mouth

A thousand thoughts running wild inside me head

I really do believe God is there

But maybe He got tired of listening to me complain

I don’t know anything, what’s real or not

I just know that tomorrow will feel like yesterday

I walk to the kitchen

Feel the terracotta tiles beneath my feet

I open the fridge, the light comes on

There’s still nothing to eat

I’m not hungry at all

I just wanted something to do

I can’t watch tv or listen to the radio

It all seems to remind me of you

I’m such a pathetic mess

It wasn’t even the person I miss

More the dream of what could have been

I’m so tired of living like this

This is what it’s like when all hope is lost

When there is nothing to look forward to

This is what happens when you die inside

This is a life of a me without a you