The journal
587 entries — poetry, lyrics, photographs and passing thoughts, from May 2014 to July 2026.
What are we fighting for? What do we know of the…
I remember
I remember everything Not just bits and pieces I know what love is And agony that never ceases I can replay memories In vivid, colourful details Someone never really loved When the…
Talk
I would talk to you Like any other day But someone had other plans And you had to go away They say it all works out Just the way it should But I find there's nothing here What I'm…
Gone
The more I think The less I feel There are no more tears Or hurts to conceal The absence of love Hasn't made me strong It's made me lament All that is gone All that you have seen I…
Everything and nothing
Sitting at the kitchen table Just walked in, light a cigarette Don't feel like cooking for one Although it's two with my regret It's how we figure it should be But nothing is ever…
Fuck you
It's not difficult To be disgusted by society Everyone looking for an instant fix So many women That will fuck for fun Yet I want more than this Sure men are the same Looking for t…
07:20
the wind is blowing through the graves of all these unrealized dreams hidden in the shadows of the past the ghosts of what could have been
20:10
I cannot undo the past Nor make sense of it A vast blur of memories I cannot find answers Nor any meaning I only hope that you will find me I have walked for days This direction th…
The corner
He stands on the corner Just staring at the street People rushing by He used to know how to smile Now he knows how to die His clothes are drenched But its better in the rain no one…
22:17
I don't want to forget Because times were bad But rather because They were the best I ever had Now I'm afraid I'll never feel that way again And nothing will compare To what we had…
Have
You can have all I don't A house and picket fence veneer The beautiful photo's But you're a whore my dear I don't need the pretences Your shallow attempts at popularity See I can't…
The promised land
Remember the promised land We always thought we would find Remember all the promises we broke And all the dreams we left behind Perhaps there will come a time When all the sadness…
Eyes without a face
It's the palpable sense of loss The doom of a mad love Clinging to hope in the dark It's the sublime misery The longing before the fact That causes the broken heart Frozen in her f…
Wonder
Is it any wonder I can't sleep What I have is all you left me And all that is, is nothing I can't taste, I can see I can write in my misery Fuck you for your loving I can hate, I c…
Let your eyes
Let your eyes see me Let my heart not sigh in the breaking dawn Let all things beautiful be Restored after the destruction of the storm Let hope fill the halls Of my dreams again L…
Panic
I put it all together But the pieces dont fit I scrape the bottom But I can't get to it Finger nails pulling loose Digging, staring through the tears Not blinking, whimpering Pleas…
Some people
For some people Forever is just a single day All their beautiful promises Are simply washed away I don't know the reasons I don't know the why I'm running out of seasons All the "I…
The door
You never cried after I was gone I always just darkened your door See love doesn't fade for me I just can't use it anymore You're eyes once smiled When you looked at me Now that be…