09:02
Here we stand Mouths full of saliva and disease Devouring the hearts of others Here we fall Shattered upon our knees Pleading with our dead lovers Here we dream In a lifeless, star…
The journal
587 entries — poetry, lyrics, photographs and passing thoughts, from May 2014 to July 2026.
Take it all
You can have this bed With it's crumpled grey sheets Airconditioner humming on the wall You take the carpets, memories The books, the terracotta tiles Just fucking take it all You…
21:39
There's a certain freedom In realising who you are Yet at that time too you find yourself in chains As the light appears in which you can see So a new darkness consumes you Till th…
I say things here Simply because they have nowhe…
16:01
You know it's funny I believe I could love you Every last ounce of your being Perhaps I'm a sentimental fool And it's something of which I'm aware Truth be told, i dont really care
Hope
If hope was measured in set amounts It would seem that I have spent my last What use is dreaming of a future When the present just becomes the past Such beautiful moments Mired in…
A single moment
I can recognise the moment inside me It's never been easy looking at all of you A life turning on a single point in space I just don't know what I'm supposed to do All the faces, s…
This is reality
I'd like to wake up Smell her hair As she's laying there Feel her breathing softly Her the breath move her lips Close, not moving, not even gently The texture of her skin The lines…
Half to my one half
You'll never have my memories Or all the things I've seen Never know the places and heartache Or share this forgotten dream I'd give up my entire world To stop my heart from being…
It's not easy
Now there's nothing left to lose There's nothing left to say Who took who for granted And brought on the decay It's never an easy thing To keep to the choices we make Keep breathin…
War
It's none of your f*cking business I don't care i want to forget I got nowhere left to go So leave me to drown in regret I've been fed on raised on sh*t For so many endless years I…
Things
I've been drinking the poison I feel like I'm immune I feel diluted and weak Sitting in this empty room It makes no difference Pessimistic or optimistic Same results ensue It makes…
Blood
Tearing and defeating myself Point your finger at somebody else Digging the graves, bathed in flame The id, the blame, the self Come out of the shadows Come unglued It's in the blo…
Will
I cannot create something from nothing I cannot bend or change Gods will I cannot amend burnt bridges Or bring to life what He has decided to kill I can pray, i can beg and plead I…
Death comes to all things
I've buried friends and acquaintances Family and so many dreams Hope has died an agonising death The same as so many things It's not sad that I don't remember the faces But that I…
The dust
The hole in the wall
I've seen life through a hole in the wall Hope left the room but was never there at all The lampshade hangs to one side Phone rings but no one's there to answer the call Somehow wa…
Off the rails
No it's not that I'm a depressive I'd just prefer to have a descriptive Each word needs a definition Each thing needs an explanation It's never about a why or a who Other than a si…
Nothing
Seems to be a strange sensation Not angry or sad, but a type of hollow Like a vacuum or a void It's not tiring, or anything described Everything has a tint of nothing to it It's as…
22:13
I let it fall I let down my guard Things put back together I stood watching the flames Still they smoulder in the ash They will burn forever The lines, the shape The wretched twist…