The journal
587 entries — poetry, lyrics, photographs and passing thoughts, from May 2014 to July 2026.
The hours
All of those hours All of those days This length of time Just tortures me in different ways The entrance hall's still empty My prayers hang in this air My dreams crushed beneath yo…
20:42
You can have my words Useless things after all You can steal my drama I don't long for it anymore I'm down there in the nowhere cellphones ringing without end we can take this road…
21:22
These worn out roads all lead nowhere The doors of houses like mouths of cadavers Parties filled with decay and hubris Moths in an eternally burning flame A concert of the damned A…
08:48
You stole my tomorrow Left me with yesterday I’m stuttering like a fool Trying so hard just to say I miss you
Not ok
Yeah let's do that, I'm bored Buy a new Mercedes Benz Let's fuck, get married, divorced After all we're just a means to an end Let's choke on our humanity Our liberal little ways L…
The world burns
We've bought all that's for sale We've been taught by marketing We've been sold the latest dream And all the while the world is burning We drive the fanciest cars Just so our frien…
Love, the sickly child
Love, my sickly child Who ran away from home Love, my empty smile Who broke my every bone I cannot repeat the past Looking for you in ever corner Love, you do not wish to be found…
The name
I know that I'm hopeless Since the day you walked away I know I'm a lost cause You had no reason to stay Yeah Kathleen, I been drifting That's the first time I could say your name…
Help
Can you help me? I know I'm in danger I finally have nothing left to lose I'm worried about my soul man I'm burning with this anger I can't stand in these shoes Hey man can you sav…
The drug
Women are like heroin Shoot up enough times And they'll leave scars All the beautiful illusions Will leave you dead Burning beneath the stars
21:54
No one is saving anyone No one gets out alive We all say we love honesty But in truth we love the lie I've seen the violence in man Because I recognize it in me I am the end of mys…
23:30
Others are often confused They think I am at war with them But I am too busy fighting my demons To face mortal men
21:41
The wind is blowing The door is closed I have abandoned all Soon the storm will come The clouds gather like a mob I am here, waiting We were two in the passing haze Now I am one
19:07
I am the twisted shades of hell Every human profanity in flesh I am the wanton desires of man That can no longer feel its breath I am lost in self loathing Seeing all these hands h…
The truth
I bury the memories under my bed Days come, days go all the same I could make promises to myself But the truth is it's love down the drain I have seen so many faces Woken next to m…
10:00
There's no blaze of glory Or riding into the sunset In the end you're in the same quiet room Smoking another cigarette They've walked out the door The silence is different to befor…
So many things
There are so many things That I deeply regret I will try to forgive But I know I'll never forget I have begged for mercy For all the things I've done I pray for redemption But all…
Repeat
I have ghosts that will not leave Like the hours after a bar has closed Only one person left to clean up the mess The same song just plays on repeat Then in the desperate hours of…
All the hells and worlds
My anguish is a bottomless cup So I shall pour and pour I will lay in the dark and fester Until I don't feel anymore My avarice is an endless abyss All the darkness of a life un-li…