09:32
Here I am This is all I'll ever be The sum of my mistakes Misgivings and agony
The journal
587 entries — poetry, lyrics, photographs and passing thoughts, from May 2014 to July 2026.
Each night
Each night she comes in And cuts my heart out of my chest She spends the evening making me remember And fills me with regret Each night I lay there Dreaming of who we were I can dr…
Checking out
Life will come again But for now it's all undone The ashes of time wash away We have nowhere left to run Tired of letting go Tired of starting again I know of the past Tired of ask…
The blonde
Once a week I walk passed Always looking to the left And some days she looks back Not that I'd say anything I just look the other way Then buy the coffee that I lack
14:17
You can stare at the edge of the world Waiting for the light to fold White sinews resting in the wind Promises to mend the broken bones Our children with guilty spines Made to with…
Music
Music needs to capture wither anger or sadness Or it's pointless Beauty and brutality Like a woman in leather...
The sea
I'd run faster If my legs could carry me I'd open my eyes But I still won't see I must separate the anchor Let myself drift at sea Ignore the clouds and fears And let the oceans sw…
The drunk
I don’t just want to be the summer of your heart But rather, all four seasons I want to love like a drunk loves his liquor And never have to defend my reasons
Medicated
I'm looking at myself with borrowed eyes Wondering how much of me is still alive I used to count the hours to your doorstep Now I'm medicated to fix the regret
The pale
The mountains rise In a pale whisper of blue Like frozen teeth in the dawn A distant depression Eyeless words linger in shadow And so despair will be born Our anguish laid bare Fil…
20:10
Some day
Some day it will all make sense Some day there will be no pain and regret Some day you will find peace and happiness Some day you will no longer pray to forget But that day is not…
No point whatsover
"If romance makes you sick, then what's all this?" She asked. "See that's where you're mistaken, this isn't romance, but its death." He replied. He then added, almost whispering; "…
Our Gift
The stolen hours The misgivings of the flesh Our damaged souls Decaying with each lonely breath We see the mountains A path we could never find Yet we walk and wonder Lost and so v…
The gutters
Our undying love ends in the gutters In paperwork and courts Our promises of forever Just end up in divorce The futures we build Lie in ashes and ruins The dreams and promises Simp…
Save me
Here in the blur of your memory Like a dead soul lost in space The tears of my agony Are frozen to the side of my face I try and read their minds as they pass me by And hope that s…
16:03
In your beauty, I learnt to love And time no longer had any sway In your shape, I had found my peace Now all I know has gone away In your words, I had a purpose Deeper than any oce…
Diagnosis
I imagine that emotional death, is similar to a terminal disease. At first there is denial, the grey food that doesn't taste like anything is sickening, and you cannot believe this…
What's left
In the time that's passed It would seem that love Is as foreign to me as mandarin I apologize if I'm not easily swayed But love is more than just mundane And if that's the case, I…
We were
We're memories at tables In a poorly lit restaurant In doorways and rooms At some fancy hotel We were lovers and friends With a future in the stars We were dreamers and believers T…