Wish
If I could go back in time I never meant for it to be this way I'd choose to forget before I remember And I would never know these chains Oh that which I would change I could wish…
The journal
587 entries — poetry, lyrics, photographs and passing thoughts, from May 2014 to July 2026.
Never
I never feared death And so I did not die I do not fear pain And so I do not cry Yet I feared loneliness And truly alone am I
Morning
It's the small things I miss The light that felt new The scent of the morning As I lay awake next to you First time I ever wanted to dance...
Where is my life?
I'm sick of driving the N1 Smoking two packs a day Waking up at five I don't even know what to pray Where's my life I started to build? All the pieces and dreams unfulfilled Where'…
14:38
The streets are lined with broken dreams Like tired hungry orphans in the dirt Hollowed eyes staring in the dark Starved that even bitterness is sweet fruit Hope left and locked th…
Don't dream
The lovelier she is The less I will hope The higher she seems The more I am below Don't dream Charlie... Don't you dare
20:02
I have slept in coffins and graves Keeping records of my wounds I have hidden my eyes from the burning sun And layed awake in crumbling ruins Some men are filled with joyful songs…
How Long?
How long will it be? Where it feels like we were never here Could we have held on Rather than to let it disappear? The clouds have gathered but the storm never did come I sat waiti…
Here and now
Here and now In the weeping arms of the day In the dreadful silence around me I can feel it all slipping away You think you know me Behind this damaged facade The cage that holds m…
22:13
Our days are but whispers of death Wasted on the vanities of the flesh And so still, I long for it too With each, fading breath
I wish I could say, but it escapes me.
Often
Often I wonder just why I would rush home There's nothing there The most insidious lie Is "I love you" It's a path to despair
Ugly
I could love you Buy you pretty flowers But I'll stay in the fire Burn with all the others My precious scars They all spell your name I will always stand here With this burden of b…
Yes I'm a broken record
There’s a song by Breaking Benjamin Called “Forget it” I remember putting it on repeat I’d wait for you to get home I’d wonder just how to save us While I stood cooking something t…
Winter
16:18
Did you hear?
Did you hear the world is ending People are still outside going to work A chord plays on an old piano And someone tries to forget they hurt Did you hear the sky is burning And the…
21:16
There is a loneliness so great You can taste it in the very air A dark misery so deep That it's no longer called despair That the very existence of man Is an unyielding catatonic s…
Reality
I don't need the promises The pretty little lies The false marketing propaganda In a cynic it's no surprise I heard it all before The bullshit promise of more Oh yeah you love me I…
Paper
I am made of paper Been folded too many times You can see all the marks Almost torn, the faded lines I'm a wreck of a man A speck in the dust of humanity The ashes of a wasted life…