A thought....
The only true question is; which causes more pain? Loving too much or not loving at all? Is the only true place where we can feel no pain indifference? Which seems a hell all of it…
The journal
587 entries — poetry, lyrics, photographs and passing thoughts, from May 2014 to July 2026.
Fester
I would hope that your heart festers in you Necrotic like the dreams that died in me That you never sleep because you cannot forget I hope that your footsteps too are heavy I hate…
Move and conquer Divide the spoils of war pacify…
Misfortunes
What is life But a series of misfortunes? Nothing more than an endless nightmare Deeper than all the oceans What is life But a lifeless death of the heart? The unending loss of joy…
Biology
I am blood, skin Organs, mind, corpuscles Limbs, lungs and hands Tissue, bone and muscles Most of all, a broken heart...
20:01
This moment This incoherent lie A blur of blue Burning inside Crowded streets cleared Houses emptied Catatonic I am Bitter and diseased Take it from me Take all I am Nothing, nothi…
The orchestra
If you think of people as instruments in an orchestra; flute, cello, viola, oboe, trumpet, all have a part to play... And some people are just triangles....
Ends
Be still aching heart Lest my sadness grow In bitter anguish I lay Upon a bed of woe A barren tomorrow Only what came before Perhaps it's time to end it I cannot take much more
16:04
Nietzsche said a man Can bear any how provided he has a why The worst part is having life But feeling so dead inside
Enough
I avoid that which causes me pain So don't look at me, or say my name Life is that empty for me I'd grab anything to fill the space But I will not be mislead By your pretty face I'…
Isn't there something so much more? I don't want…
My body is here But I left long ago Nothing can…
Condemned
Condemned to wear this hell Like a second translucent skin Comatose and violent in my sleep Running but not escaping my sin
I’d love to drink till I pass outOr get so high…
Nothing
My life feels like an old book Yellow, mildewed pages Moth eaten, parts missing Afraid of letting the mask slip Maybe the world would see The violence in me The anger, self loathin…
Collective
I'm burning with illusions Drowning in her memory It feels I cannot be saved It's my endless sea Pinned against her heart Weighted with razor wire A collective of tears Tormented b…
Truth
You think you know me? Drifting through the blur Where we stopped dancing And I can't forget her You would think there are answers I could literally "fuck" it away I can wake up an…
14:16
We don't eat We don't sleep We lay awake And grind our teeth
Madness
I've traveled through madness And still wander it's halls I've watched my world crumble Like a fool that never learns The faces stare back As if I could reply I'm too tortured to b…
You'll never find
If you remember the song By Lou Rawls, "you'll never find" I just stood outside smoking And remember all we left behind It used to make me smile This song and you And still the wor…