The journal
587 entries — poetry, lyrics, photographs and passing thoughts, from May 2014 to July 2026.
Morning
Cobblestones
She came in with the snow In jeans and a pair of grey boots At a place called cobblestones She left in a floral blouse In summer wearing sandals When she walked out of my house Do…
Pray for me
I don't think I need anyone to pray for me I don't even want anyone to care I don't need you to cry Just get me the hell out of here There's nothing but ash in the water Since I've…
Let me die
I want to die Like my old dreams Of dancing in Paris Drinking coffee in Istanbul I never wanted this Yes, I am a fool I wanted to wake up in love The kind that never dies Now I wak…
06:44
I'm so sick of myself I Look in the mirror And I see someone else Condemned to live that persons hell
Misguided
I build ivory towers Put people on top They tear it down Then what have I got? I know no cure But I know the cause I got all these memories And don't want them anymore Are we made…
Fuck it
I'll say nothing now The writings on the wall Was trying to "do something" But guess there's no point anymore So I'll walk, take my shit and go Its a pity but guess I'll never know…
"I forgot what it felt like to be punched in the…
You
I am broken by your passing feet Laying in the street like a stone Unable to move, mute and dumb From all the doings of my own I am waiting, silently like a tomb In the cold dawn o…
Touch
Touch my hand Feel me here Talk to me Before we disappear My body is broken My heart a mess My soul is wounded No more, just less In this twilight Just call my name In these final…
Ends
Every now and then A lifetime comes to bitter end Don't forget the bags we packed A month of Sundays Realising the bitterness I hide And the love I wanted but lacked Every day is j…
18:49
My footsteps and hopes Washed away by the tide Grooves carved into my face From the tears that I've cried If you looked hard enough You'd see the horror in my eyes I can't look at…
17:55
You think it's easy As if there are no feelings here You think this is what I want You know what I'd give To have know you rather than her Who's memory lingers like a corpse Remove…
Madness
Is this what it is to go mad? To perish in the torment Of memories and hope Tell me where to find peace Where words are no longer strange Is this what it is to languish With a head…
Without a name
I had not a name for it yet I know it, as it is lost and though I search, I cannot find where it once was now a perpetual darkness as though I am blind once, there were dreams comf…
18:21
The sky screamed in a violent red In the fading afternoon hue I feel like may be slightly addicted The usage of words seems futile Incoherent in the blur Of which I appear to be af…
16:08
You would be perfect And I'd be a fuckup You would be the one I'd choose And I'd be all broken up Its just one thing I wish I could say That's all it is That keeps me away And noth…
So it seems I spend all my time Thinking of you…
The red dress
It's something I struggle to subdue The only colour in a grey world Yeah I think of you The same way you do