Often
Often I wonder just why I would rush home There's nothing there The most insidious lie Is "I love you" It's a path to despair
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Poetry
450 entries in poetry.
Ugly
I could love you Buy you pretty flowers But I'll stay in the fire Burn with all the others My precious scars They all spell your name I will always stand here With this burden of b…
Yes I'm a broken record
There’s a song by Breaking Benjamin Called “Forget it” I remember putting it on repeat I’d wait for you to get home I’d wonder just how to save us While I stood cooking something t…
Did you hear?
Did you hear the world is ending People are still outside going to work A chord plays on an old piano And someone tries to forget they hurt Did you hear the sky is burning And the…
21:16
There is a loneliness so great You can taste it in the very air A dark misery so deep That it's no longer called despair That the very existence of man Is an unyielding catatonic s…
Reality
I don't need the promises The pretty little lies The false marketing propaganda In a cynic it's no surprise I heard it all before The bullshit promise of more Oh yeah you love me I…
Paper
I am made of paper Been folded too many times You can see all the marks Almost torn, the faded lines I'm a wreck of a man A speck in the dust of humanity The ashes of a wasted life…
Fester
I would hope that your heart festers in you Necrotic like the dreams that died in me That you never sleep because you cannot forget I hope that your footsteps too are heavy I hate…
Biology
I am blood, skin Organs, mind, corpuscles Limbs, lungs and hands Tissue, bone and muscles Most of all, a broken heart...
20:01
This moment This incoherent lie A blur of blue Burning inside Crowded streets cleared Houses emptied Catatonic I am Bitter and diseased Take it from me Take all I am Nothing, nothi…
Ends
Be still aching heart Lest my sadness grow In bitter anguish I lay Upon a bed of woe A barren tomorrow Only what came before Perhaps it's time to end it I cannot take much more
16:04
Nietzsche said a man Can bear any how provided he has a why The worst part is having life But feeling so dead inside
Enough
I avoid that which causes me pain So don't look at me, or say my name Life is that empty for me I'd grab anything to fill the space But I will not be mislead By your pretty face I'…
Isn't there something so much more? I don't want…
Condemned
Condemned to wear this hell Like a second translucent skin Comatose and violent in my sleep Running but not escaping my sin
I’d love to drink till I pass outOr get so high…
Nothing
My life feels like an old book Yellow, mildewed pages Moth eaten, parts missing Afraid of letting the mask slip Maybe the world would see The violence in me The anger, self loathin…
Collective
I'm burning with illusions Drowning in her memory It feels I cannot be saved It's my endless sea Pinned against her heart Weighted with razor wire A collective of tears Tormented b…
Truth
You think you know me? Drifting through the blur Where we stopped dancing And I can't forget her You would think there are answers I could literally "fuck" it away I can wake up an…
14:16
We don't eat We don't sleep We lay awake And grind our teeth